How Magick Works Through Me

Today I’m going to share with you how magick works through me. I’m hoping by sharing this with you, you’ll learn how magick can work through you, too. To give you an example of what I mean, I’ll tell you how I go through the process of writing these posts. It’s a process of many steps.

I begin with my morning routine of sitting down and journaling my thoughts. I record my dreams, if they’re worth exploring. Otherwise, I jot down what’s on my heart. It’s in these revelation’s, magick will give me an idea of what I need to share with you.

Sometimes, I’m given just a title. Sometimes the title changes many times before the final draft is complete. It’s important to let you know that everything I write about is something I have experienced firsthand. I don’t always know what it is I’m going to share. This post started out like the others, but then half way through the second edit, magick had me change it to something more personal. Sharing how magick works through me.

If you knew me, you’d understand how difficult this is for me to do. I am used to being private when it comes to talking about myself. However, I’m doing this post because magick has asked me to do it. I trust that whatever magick wants me to be sharing is important to someone else.

Back to how I prepared to write this post. After I’m done jotting down what I feel is important, I go about my day. I don’t feel forced or pressured to sit and write out the post in-full. I trust magick will nudge me when I need to write. For I have found that if I sit down with the intent of getting the words down, life interrupts my plans.

It’s when I’m in-between the business of my days, that I find ideas popping into my mind or have been placed upon my heart. I jot the ideas down and wait for more to follow. Sometimes, I can spend half the day writing or I just jot down a word or two to be expanded later. I also add whatever flows out of me whether it makes sense or not. 

Sometimes, I think I've finished the post and then the very next day I delete it all and start again. I don’t get angry when this happens as I’ve learned magick is helping me carve out the best information necessary to write. I add words, remove others and repeat, until the story takes form. I work in steps and with patience. 

It’s necessary for me to write with grace. Grace means to move with your natural rhythm. To move with ease and never by force. Nor either by beating myself up about having to delete most of the work I thought was going to be shared and then having to start again. When this occurs, I trust a story is being told. I consider this process to be a partnership with magick. I’m the author and magick is the narrator speaking through me. This to me is truly magickal. For there’s no way I could do any of this alone.

In the early stages of my writing, I would sit down with a topic and do everything possible to stick to that idea. It was frustrating to try and force a topic by limiting myself to a title for it. 

Magick taught me to lose the idea of control over what I’m meant to share and allow myself to enjoy the beautiful process of how magick works through me.

Writing is similar to the same lesson I had to learn while living through my everyday life. Just like needing to edit my writing, I find my life needs editing, too! I can’t expect my day to go as I plan, so I allow my day to unfold naturally as it is meant.

I’m a mom of two children and three cats. My days are filled with a lot of responsibilities. The place where I live is loud, as well. There’s always delivery trucks, construction sounds, sirens blaring and people shouting randomly at times, too.

There’s been days where I've fought so hard to wait for the right conditions to write, yet I’ve had to give up completely because it’s just too loud.

Instead of getting angry and frustrated by the natural sounds of living in a city, I’ve learned magick will appear and create a silent space in time for me to work. In a moment, when I least expect it, I will feel pulled or as I like to call it being nudged by magick to sit down and work. It’s as if by magick (I know it is), that the noises disappear.

By learning that magick will create the perfect moments for me to sit down and do this work, I’ve learned how to enjoy all aspects of my life, also. Whatever I need to do, gets done. On time and without hassle. Magick is looking out for me in every area of my life. However, doing this in the beginning of working with magick wasn’t easy to do. I was raised to be constantly moving in life. Which meant if I was sitting still, I was called lazy. I’m an active person by nature, so it was even more difficult for me to not do anything, but sit still and sit in silence.

Magick showed me that I’m allowed to have the luxury of relaxing by sitting down and doing nothing when I feel called to sit. Without the guilt attached. I’ve learned that relaxing is healthy. It’s important to sit still and allow my body and mind to take a break, too.

I used to feel angry or feel frustrated for trying to complete all the things I felt I had to do throughout my days. I remember the stress of feeling I had to check off all my To Do List before I could do something enjoyable. It took magick to show me that staying busy never created any space for me to not have time to rest. Therefore, I was keeping busy yet not being productive. I was wasting my energy on nothing of importance. Now, instead of trying to check unlimited boxes off my To Do List, so I won’t be called lazy, I rest more. By resting, I get more done.

The most magickal part of achieving this is knowing that it’s true. I get everything done with ease. Even the most difficult of tasks are handled well and I find peace in completing them, too.

I give all the credit to magick.

Before I met magick, I viewed my life as a battlefield. It felt like I was always fighting the world, alone. The day I found magick, my entire world transformed. I cleaned up my life, my body and most important of all, my heart was cleaned up, too.

For the first time in my life, I felt a true connection to me. What I’d been searching for in others and in the world was a false connection. I chased what I thought was success.

I was wrong!

Finding magick showed me everything I’d ever been searching for was inside of me the whole time.

Here’s a secret no one else will tell you, you can’t survive this world alone. You need magick if you want to be successful. The world can be demanding. Only magick can help you stand up to it. You can exercise and work out to your heart's content, but the strength you need to succeed and thrive in the world can only come through magick assisting you.

I’m not a big person in real life. I’m actually quite small. I’ve encountered people who’ve had ill intent toward me. I’ve been harassed, stalked, lied-upon, sabotaged and have gone up against many all at once. I couldn’t have survived through any of that without magick giving me the strength to do so.

If I’d been alone thinking I could have defeated all who came up against me, I’d be dead or far from a space to where I am speaking to you, now. I'm here because magick made it possible for me to stand tall against the world when it was trying to make me fall. The reason why none of the attacks were ever able to defeat me was because magick knew I had a greater purpose in the world. Magick wasn’t going to allow others to destroy me because I refused to kneel at their feet.

Knowing this, I don’t get stressed about what crosses my path because I’ve learned through magcick that whatever I’m called to do in any given moment is part of my life. The good and the bad. In the past, I’d get angry and frustrated at being targeted. Now, I pray for anyone who attempts to thwart my path, for they aren’t attacking me, they’re attacking the magick within me.

Nothing and no one earth has the power to destroy magick. Once you’ve had a taste of magick working in your life, you too will understand this to be true.

There’s power in knowing you can walk upon this world without harm coming to you. Be careful, it’s a double-edged sword. You cannot walk upon this world believing magick will support you in trying to destroy others. Let magick do the work needed to protect you. Your role is to walk in peace and joy doing what you have been called here to do.

When you connect with magick, you’ll understand who you are. By knowing yourself, you can understand others. By opening your heart to magick, you can see those who are loving and those who struggle with love. Instead of wanting to see these people struggle, you learn to be compassionate towards them.

If everyone used magick to help heal their inner wounds, the world would be a much better place.

Here’s another secret magick wants to share with you today. When you have a good relationship with magick, the world you live in is the most beautiful place to be. After all, how you view the world is how you will experience the world.

I’m a writer and I love to tell stories. I’ve written stories since I was very young. I wasn’t any good at writing, but I was determined to learn how to do it. Even today, I question if what I write makes sense or not. I could sit and stall in fear of not being perfect, however if I did that none of these words would ever be heard. I’ve learned to trust what I say needs to be shared. I’ve studied people my entire life.

By being given the gift of a story teller, combining this with journaling and my desire to tell the truth, I found magick. It wasn’t a joyful place where magic found me, either. It was sitting alone with my thoughts that I found the space to sit with myself. It took practice to write out what was weighing heavily upon my heart and it was an unhealthy space to be. I was feeling lost and confused and rejected by the world. It was here that I unknowingly created a place in my heart for magick to visit with me. Writing allowed me to see through the pains and the burdens I unknowingly carried within me. 

The daily routine of journaling allowed me to connect with magick in an intimate environment where I felt free to express myself. Where I could accept myself as I am. A space where no one could reject me, anymore. By doing this, I was able to set my burdens down and see the truth.

I wasn’t a reject. I wasn’t unworthy. In my desire to know and understand who I was, I was able to learn who I am. I am magickal because I have magick living within my heart. Everything I am and everything I do comes from my firsthand experiences in life. I’m sharing part of my story with you, so if you feel alone or isolated from the world, know that I’ve been there, too.

I sat in the dark for the majority of my life. Instead of lying in defeat in that space, I decided I had enough. I wanted out of it. It was through my ability to ask for help in the dark, that help appeared. By being vulnerable and by being honest with myself, I had to admit defeat that I couldn’t do it alone. The only way for me to get out of the dark was asking for help. That’s when magick showed up. Magick guided me out of the dark space, step by step. Illuminating my path by a spark of light until I was able to see my way out.

That is a time in my life I will never forget. Since I stood up that day and followed magick, I have never sat alone in the dark again. To this day, I need magick to help me in every step I take. Not because I can’t do it alone because I no longer want to walk alone. I love having magick in my life. For everything I need. Big or small.

Magick did this for me and I’m telling you, magick will do it for you. All you have to do is ask for the help and receive the help when it arrives.

Magick gave me the gift of telling stories when I was very young. I hid that gift from the world because no one wanted to listen to what I had to say. I no longer associate with those sorts of people.

Are you hiding your gift from the world?

If you like to paint, then you need to create a space for you to paint. If you can’t afford to buy the materials then paint with whatever you have available. Use your finger, dirt or whatever else you can find. When magick sees you’re serious about painting, magick will give you the means to access the tools needed for you to create more of what you want. It’s up to you to show magick you’re ready to start.

I hope by hearing a bit of my story and how I discovered magick that you, too, will believe there’s magick in the world and it’s inside of you.

Remember, if you ever feel there is no hope. It’s in the dark where you see the light.